I feel so empty inside.....like I'm hungry for something more....and I can't find what I want to appease my hunger.

For 12 weeks +/- when my eyes opened I turned on my computer and read everything I could find on BB....I travelled more miles this summer than a marathon runner and this morning when my eyes opened I thought to myself "what are you going to do all day today?"

Being in Canada sometimes sux like this morning when you get that loverly message when you click on a video and up comes "you are outside the geographical area to view this video" Yikes! Then I remembered that I don't get the "free" anything from superpass except the feeds. I often watch people say how great the music was here and there.....hmmm I never got any music on my feeds except the BRB chit. Soooo anywho....I went travelling again and found all the interviews I could find from everyone I could find and they didn't care if I was from Timbucktoo!

Real owes me big bux for all the freebies I didn't get for 11 seasons.

So it's over once more and tomorrow I'm moving to Samoa and shortly a trip around the world. Maybe then I can forget about that house on the lot at CBS. But its gonna take awhile because I will wonder "Did Jordan go to Hawaii with Jeff? Did Natalie really get married (gag)? Did Michele get enough(!!!) yet?" Life goes on for them but it will leave me behind and unsatisfied. It always does, though so I won't lose too much sleep over it.

All in all it was a pretty emotional season, with a fairy tale ending. I hope Jordan is not taken advantage of when it comes to the prize money. She is so gullible that some freakies out there will be at her heels soon, and she'll believe them. But after taxes, and looking out for her mother, brother and cousins there won't be too much to worry about in the bank. Think there was a sister ,the internet and a new car mentioned too. Charities......please don't bother calling! 350K doesn't buy what it used to.

I did feel bad for Kevin. Being last man out is not a good place to be, so I am happy he won 5Kx2=10K, during competitions. That should help with the mortgage a bit. I find it funny that for a guy who is admittedly gay, can seem so straight. His orientation was never an issue for anyone, which pleased me. I guess I would also say there were some real nice people on this cast. Nyeh! and some not. My one regret through this whole season was Natalie getting 50K. But in order for Jordan to win she had to take Natalie. I hope the money doesn't spoil her and that she can find a good and fulfilling life...........